Oh baby, I know it hurts. I went through high school like that too. It only got worse when one day I almost ended it all. I was lucky enough to have a friend who saw the signs and stepped in. I'm 24 now and I still deal with the hurt and pain today. It doesn't go away completely, but it does get better. I promise. Never give up on yourself, you don't know what you really mean to people until you are gone. People will miss you. Your family and your DA family. I'm going to therapy for my problems now, not saying you should, but there are so many options out there that can help you.
You will always have my support and you can always talk to me about anything if you ever need an ear. n_n
Talking or even venting helps so much. I wish I could help out more, but I don't know what else to do.
Maybe you only see the darkness in front of you because you are only focusing on the bad that is in front of you.
Sometimes people can be a light for others. I believe everyone holds some sort of candle and there are other people in front of them with candles. Maybe you can't see any light in front of you, because you are ahead of everyone else with your candle, it could be low flicker, but it is not completely out. You could be leading other people to follow the glow of your candle. I don't know if that makes any sense to you. But sometimes I feel that way.
There being a lot of darkness in front of me and I can't see 5 feet ahead, but if I look back I can see these little lights that are following me and I know that I am leading others along my journey. Whether or not they continue to follow me is their choice, but with me in the lead, I am going to do my best to keep my head held high and follow heart.
I know it might not make any sense, but I don't want you to give up. You're too much of a sweet girl for this world to lose.
You are a light source for someone. You may not know who it is, or if there are more that are watching your lead, but they are there. It took me almost committing suicide to realize that myself.
I wish I knew how to help you more. All I can do is be a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. n_n